i had a wonderful dream last night... iii1 was in a circle or at least only the people in dorm 2. because the setting of my dream was in dorm 2. in the retreat house.

weird. our retreat was long over yet my dream setting happened there.

ok, here it goes, we were all holding hands and i was beside pimple. it was so weird. why was i beside pimple?!

anyway, we were talking..and it felt so real...and there was this moment i hugged pimple..and...i put my arms around pimple..and i just held on to pimple...

and when we're about to go to sleep pimple asked me if i already have a bed..it's like pimple's concerned...

it was wonderful.

oh well. it won't happen in real life anyway.

what else? i finished my religion project yesterday. my foreign freedom icon was supposed to al gore but when i saw his site again, i don't know why he should be a freedom icon. so i selected jan engeland. the thing is, i'm not sure if anyone in the class already has a jan engeland..

so i'm nervous.

i created a sonnet for english yesterday.

i typed it up today and i got ave to print it for me. the background is gorgeous. yesterday, i signed up to be a member of deviantart. it's so cool.

especially the vectors. omg. they're my fave. thing right now.

here's one.














isn't it gorgeous? i know! right?! they're like, real people but they're not. super cool.:)

if you have any, can you share it with me? coolness!

it's as cool as a fresh citrus bath with aromatherapy.


yes. i'm posting again.

i forgot to mention that the retreat pix came out.

check them at chickenbebehs [see my links]
meanwhile here are some.
[top left: zari, me]
[down L TO R: kei, sam, bianx and apay]



aveline and me..:)









GGI.
[L-R jamie, czar, me and badette]


sigh. it doesn't feel like friday. i don't know why. i'm supposed to go to our practice today but i didn't ask my mum.

why?

i'm almost positive she'll say no.

this isn't good at all. my parents are so overprotective that there comes a point when they don't believe me when i tell them i need to stay at school so because we have to do a project or we have some practice etc.

i hate it.

i'm frustrated already. i'm trying to get over the fact that almost half of my class' parents allow them to go on gimmicks on friday. yes, gimmicks. while my parents wouldn't even allow me to go to a 1 hour practice. i know they're afraid for my safety and all that. and they think i have a boyfriend.

goodness.

i wish i could tell them i'm not interested in having a bf right now. i mean, i have crushes. but hello? they live all the way from japan. and they're actors for goodness sake.

my ultimate crush:


isn't he so definitely hot?
he's mine anyway.:)












whatever. no use blabbing about how strict my parents are. our palihan last week was the hottest. it was so fun and...so...nakakakilig. haha. whatever.

you know what? i'm starting to fall out of love with pimple.

but here's the catch.

i'm falling all over again for fanfan.

what the hell is this?! i can't believe i'm back from the start. i can't believe i'm falling all over again.

bernadette and I had a misunderstanding. it was because, she just...change. i don't know maybe i'm just jealous of someone. [i can't mention the name. sorry.] or maybe, i'm being selfish?

is this right?

i'm so confused. i'm hurt everytime i see her and GGI in the corridors. i can't say hi and it..really hurts.

she left me anote during recess. in my 1 whole.

'akita, sorry kung naiwan kita ha. bumili kasi ako ng ballpen sa statio...sorry ha."-bernadette-

god. i wanted to cry. i don't know why. but my pride kicked in and i replied:

'ok lang...but you know what? nagbago ka na talaga...' and a bunch of other words i forgot.

i don't know what to say. it's so bad. i think i'm the one changing. or perhaps i'm being so jealous and selfish? God, someone enlighten me.

this is so stupid.

she's my bestfriend. i don't want to lose her. it's like the whole michele situation again.

oh god.

i don't think i can survive another lost friendship. i don't want our friendship to end. i love her endlessly but...some things really change.

it's so hard when your best friend is in the other section.

maybe that's why i kept on crying the moment i found out i was not with the same section with my friends.

maybe that's why i'm sad.

deep down, not because i don't have close friends...

but..

because i'm afraid to lose them.

i'm afraid to lose the people who had given me so much strength, inspiration and love my whole 1st and 2nd yr. life.

they're the people who i've cared so much for and i've given so many love, they're the people who knew so much about me. they knew hot to make me smile, make me laugh or just... they knew me a lot. they knew stuff about me which my family don't know. they're already a big part of me. a huge part. a gargantuan part of me.

i can't lose them.

i just can't.

i'm so afraid that this fight will end our friendship for good. even if i have a set of friends already in iii1 [i'm currently with clara, ave, janina and martha. they're so sweet for being there for me when i needed someone.]
it's never gonna be the same.

never...

i don't know what to do. this is so depressing. my heart was set that they will be my long life friends.

and because we were in separated sections we just kind of, drift apart...

no.

don't let it happen. fate wouldn't be too cruel.

i wish they could read this. i wish they knew how much hurt i'm in now. i wish they knew how much i totally love them.

god..

i need a hug.

oh, i forgot, at least there's something cute in this post.
i just found the most adorable baby girl in china.

check her out.


can someone please buy me a heart-shaped pure cotton pillow from blue magic?



it's a sunday. i was wondering if there's classes tomorrow because there's a SONA tomorrow ayt?


sigh. i've been waiting to write this in my blog for all day. but yesterday my sister was hogging the computer so i can't really type this up. and right now, this stupid computer just seems to hate me. because we have no internet connection yet and i'm just typing this up on notepad so i can paste this later.

haayyyy..

the first days of this week was kinda terrible. i'm hating my classmate.

a pair of classmates.

classmate1 thinks i have a crush on classmate 1 and won't stop teasing me about it. And classmate 2 seems to think i really do have a crush on her.

eew.

so not my type. I mean sure, classmate 2 is kinda cute. Anyone can see that. But classsmate 2 is such a feeler. it's such a turn-off. and I see her as a cute GIRL. not a tibo cuteness.

i am so not a lesbian. eew.

anyway, that was it. for wednesday, we had a mass and it was so bad. everyone was not in the mood and i thought pimple is going to sit right beside me. but 5-6 people went up and sat between us.

WWHHHYYY?? OH WHYYYYY??

so the mass was no good. on thursday we had SEG. mine is mathrix. yes yes, i know i wrote in my hates[the girl] MATH. but what can I do when my whole kada wants to be there?? whatever. it was fun though. first, we have to introduce ourself using a math symbol. like, hi i'm akita from iii-1 and i think i'm a positive sign because i'm optimistic!

a likely story.

so anyway, the sitch is, before you can introduce yourself you need to mention the symbols of all the people who was ahead you. so i need to memorize 5 people. i was so nervous! LOL. it was great hearing my name being mentioned. some even have trouble saying it. because i really want to be known as akeex,my new nickname because i'm tired of being known as akita. but the first years who were after us just can't seem to pronounce it and they end up saying 'akeesh' in a small voice since they're not sure.

hayyyy.

whatever. after that, we were divided into groups. all those who chose math operations [+ - x / ] is a big group. so they need to split us in half. since it's a cheer. and i'm a big fan of the opening cheer of bring it on. and i kinda memorized it. it went this way.

we're smart. we're hot.
we're everything you're not.
we're sexy. we're cool.
we dominate this school.
we're math operations!

lol. we changed some words. and we added we're math operations just so it'll have a connection with math. HAHA.
whatever.

ok, here goes my heavenly story.^_^
yesterday was PALIHAN. i was stuck at the back of the IMC. because we're arranged by class numbers. i was bummed out because:
1. badette and the others are far. we can't talk. :p
2. aveline says gtech and pimple are so near her.

GODDDD.

hayyy. so i was really bummed out. so anyway, i was so surprised when pimple suddenly sat at the back. they were doing a presentation and when it was over pimple was too shy to go back at the front so she stayed with us. well, pimple was beside maki. so whatever. anyway, after recess we went back at the IMC and pimple stayed at my back.

MY BACK. OH MY GOD.

haha. i was so kilig. whenever pimple like touches [taps] me and stuff. i was like 'omg. i have the essence. THE ESSENCE.' i was so happy! but, after that the moment was over and we have to go with our skills training group. i was at the sports and liturgy group. pimple was at the reading group. turns out we need 1 more member so ms. cordero [i just love her for doing that!] talked to pimple [why we were only 3 when we're supposed to be 4.] and we[me,ave and janina] went back to the classroom and i was sitting on pimple's chair. haha. more essence!^_^ anyway, i was so surprised and happy when ms. cordero came back...

with pimple.

OMG. omg. i was like 'why is she here?' then pimple sat behind me and i was like

me: bat ka andito? *totally happy*
pimple: nagkamali ung sa list eh...dapat pala 4 [she was incharged on the skills training list] so napunta ako dito..*sad* i'm not with my friends anymore.
me: *still totally happy* REALLY? *small voice while nudging aveline who was beside me* pimple is staying with us!

happiness.:))

so we were playing so we can teach the students at the day care centers some games and stuffs.
so anyway, while we we're playing i touched pimple so many times. and vice versa it was so...

HEAVENLY.

the essence is too much. and pimple even borrowed my ballpen back at the IMC. i could tell you how much i held on to that ballpen after pimple returned it to me.

so...NICE.

anyway, i was really having the time of my life. even if we were incharged of the prayer service and stuff, it was ok.

because i'm with PIMPLE.

after that, it was dismissal. we had a practice at music [me. ave. janina. kei. apay. clara.bianx]
and i was staring at the sky. i was seeing pimple there.

me: look. it's pimple...
ave: where?
me: *dreamy look.* up there...
ave: *looking at the 3rd floor* WHEERREE?
me: *whispers* there...in the clouds..
ave: *looks at me strangely* what?? OH NO. you're starting to imagine things.
me: *smiles dreamily while still looking at the skies.* don't you see her?
ave: no. i see ****.
me: haha. you still like ballet.
ave: yea. haha.

haha. we we're singing maalala mo kaya. [it's our kundiman song.] and i really can't concentrate because i was laughing so hard. i was really happy.

haha. i just have to share this.
manong icecream was chasing a wrapper of ice cream yesterday. HAHA. it was so funny because he can't chase it. he finally gave up and let the wrapper fly with the wind. HAHAHAHA.[he's kinda fat so can you imagine him? he's old na din. haha. i'm so mean! haha.]

i can't believe this. i think i'm really really in love.

forget g-tech and fanfan [ok, so i haven't totally forgotten fanfan but with g-tech i've totally moved on. such a feeler! >:( ]
i remember seeing fanfan...i've been ignoring fanfan a lot. i was making irap to fanfan.
it was because fanfan was so rude to me the other other day. yes, other other.

i'm happy. i totally am.

as happy as someone who just won a billion bucks..


i remember the phone calls.

those phone calls. memorable phone calls fanfan made.

it started yesterday when aveline and I were laughing our heads off. We were mixing our names with our crushes. mine has been successful and I came out christened as akeesha. While there are a million names to suit aveline mixed with her crush's name, she wasn't satisfied.

aveline: you already have a name. what about me??
me: well, what would you like me to call you?
aveline: how about sheena? [aveline sheena marie is her full name]
me: no. flixie already calls you that. i want to call you something unique. you know me, i like to be original.
aveline: fine fine. so how about ave?[as in av-e]
me: ave? so baduy.
aveline:eh what would you like to call me?
me: how about....AVENUE?? hahahaha!!
aveline: haha. whatever. come on. help me mixed my name with *toot*
me: ok ok. how about shi-an? or shian[pronounced as sean]
aveline: hmm..i like shi-an...ok! it's shi-an
me:*teasingly* i still think avenue is the best! *laughs*

and the laughter continues.until...

me: bye na. I have to go. and besides you have to practice for ms. asia!
aveline: i know. i know. ok. bye.
me: bye.
ave: bye.
me:BYEEEE.
ave: BYYYYEEEE.
me: oh come on.
ave: put down the phone.
me: together ok? 1, 2, 3!

after a few seconds...

both: HELLO?
me: ugh.
ave. *laughs*

this happened for quite a while.

and it reminded me of something. We finally put down the phone and I went to ponder over lost memories. [oh! the drama!]

it was way back in seond year. Fanfan was my phone-mate. every afternoon/night we would call each other up. yes, i like fanfan. [ok?!] so anyway, when I wanted to talk to her it would be like this.

me: hello?
fanfan: hello?
me: *toot*?
fanfan: yup. this is me.
me: do we have some assignments? [i know if we have assignments or not. i just to hear fanfan's voice.]
fanfan: i don't know.
me:*dejected voice.*[ kunwari lang.] oh. ok. bye.
fanfan: no. no. usap muna tayo. [or else, she opens up another topic that makes me NOT bring down the phone.]
me: hmm...[as if i'll say no!] sure! *smiles to self*

talking time...

me: ei, byebye na.
fanfan: why?
me: wala lang. sige, bye na.
fanfan: ayoko nga.
me: hmp. i can bring down the phone naman.
fanfan: ....
me: *brings down phone* [after a few seconds picks up again]
me: hello?
fanfan: *laughing* hello?
me: oh come on, bring down the phone.
fanfan: don't want to.
me: oh come onnnn! if you don't bing down the phone i can't bring down mine.
fanfan: why?
me: that's the way our phone works. you can't call someone else unless the other line brings down the phone.
fanfan: *laughing* nice. i won't bring it down then...

so kilig moments...

now, it rarely happens. as in this third year...not at all.

i so miss it. this would happen everyday. i even got scolded by my dad for non-stop usage of the phone. but i didn't care...

not when i'm talking to my crush.

heaven.

as heavenly as a free body spa.



ok. i've had it. this is my 7th layout?? whenever i see a layout that i like when i'm done editing and everything[you know, the hard part] and all i had to do was sit back,paste the template and see the results. guess what?

it's so messy.

god, i finally found a layout that's just so right. thank goodness.or i'm gonna die of frustration or else i'm going back to my xanga.

it's so me you know, the layout. i've been addicted to phone-talking these days. it's just that i've found someone who understands me.

aveline.:)

rawr. so there. i never really realized it until today. when i was at the bathroom.

i've got the sweetest friend a girl can have.

her name's bernadette. i've known her --really known her for 2 years. before, she was described by one of my past friends as someone who loves to brag. they were friends but they were stabbing each other's back. I guess i had presumed she was like that when she became my classmate back in first year. I was really never close to her. until, i don't know, one day she just joined our group and we became friends. sure, she brags sometimes, well, it sounds like bragging to me but i'm sure she's not aware she's bragging at all. And 2nd year came, my circle of friends widened and we became closer.

she's one of my bestest friends now.

how sweet can a girl get? bernadette loves strawberries so much. she always has them for recess. she always makes alok to me when recess comes. my usual reply is: no thanks. i mean, i'm on a diet and i really don't usually eat during recess so i can gorge in at lunch. kidding.:p

one day, she asked me again if i liked some of her strawberry flavored sumo wafer. it went like this:
badette: akita, gusto mo? *hands out the sumo wafers.*
me: no thanks. *smiles*
badette: oh. don't you like strawberry?
me: not really...[i'm a big fan of chocolate not strawberry.]
badette:oh! well, starting tomorrow i won't bring strawberry flavored foods na lang. so you can eat.
i was so touched. i mean, she loves strawberries and she's gonna give up taking them for recess just so i can eat.
me: *deeply touched* you don't need to do THAT. you need to eat too you know.
badette: i know, but it's not really comforting that i'm the only one eating during recess...

AWW...

God, and you know, during lunch she makes sure that her baon is edible for me. basta my favorite food, or something i eat that's the one she's bringing for lunch. and one time, when she heard i was sick she went out and packed some tocino for me. [my fave. food!]

isn't it sweet?

God, i'm so thankful that i met someone like her. not because i get free food but because no one would really do that for me. not any of my friends. no matter how sweet and cool my other friends are no one really measures up to bernadette's sweetness. she may not know, but i appreciate everything she's doing for me. and it so saddened me that she's not my classmate anymore God, i'll swap the iii1 for her.

really.

i love you dette.:) you'll always be my bestfriend.

even a juicy MAC blush-on won't measure up to how much you're priceless to me.





lol. what is up with that? i heard some rumors today. super funny too.
it appears that i'm rumored to have a crush with one of my classmates.

UGH.

what the hell is up with this people? are they really that bored? God. heaven knows i never had a crush in our classroom. let alone in our BATCH. so what is this crap? aveline says i shouldn't listen. i know the truth so why should i care so much? she's so right. so now i'm helping her write a letter for her crush. duh. when we finished the letter she was so hesitant about giving it.

WTF?

she's such a coward. i told her this: if she never tried she won't know the result. she really feels like she's going to be turned down. but whatever. so it's like tuesday today and it's always raining.

Why does time seem to be running so slow?

or maybe i'm just wishing it's friday already.:\ whatever. III2 are back from their retreat! yayyy. i'm gonna see my friends again. hay. i missed them soo much.

whatever.

i don't know what i'm supposed to write. right now, i have mixed feelings. feelings of anger and i feel silly too.

WHATEVER.

i don't care what they think.

i only care if i'm wearing the right powder for my skin tone.

more later.

smoochies.
akeex.:)



sigh. i'm bored so i decided to..i don't know...POST?
anyway, what's new...hmm...i went to the church today. We ate at yoshinoya's and i went to galle...i went to NBS but sadly i didn't find any book i wanted to buy.:( hay, i'm getting tired of my books na. i ended up buying a stapler and a gluestick. i was so surprised to see that the gluestick of another brand i like costs like, 40+?? and i was like "this costs 40+?? god! i thought it's only 20+ or something but not 40+!" God, even the FREAKIN elmer's glue is so much more better at 19.00.hayyyyy nako. i decided to buy another brand. i think the brand name is stickee or something dumb like that. it's more cheaper. 30+. anyway,when we went home[my sis was with me] i found out that the stapler didn't have any staples at all.i think i have to buy them separately pa. and the gluestick as my mum said [she used to buy the sme brand] "hay nako. ba't yan ang binili mo? sandali lang ang dikit nian!" and i was like "ndi kaia". but really, i didn't know if she was right because i've never tried the product and she had.

Oh the frustration!

nako. what else? i created some recoletters for my kada and friends. and i'm nervous about going to school tomorrow because i'm afraid of chem. HAYYYY...how i envy my kada who's gonna go retreating tomorrow. hayyyyyyyyyyy...:\ so bored!! teentalking is...kinda boring now. i guess it's because there's not much people online.

oh, and if you happen to pass by teentalk please drop by my thread: http://www.candymag.com/teentalk/index.php?topic=115317.0

there. sigh. i was thread-hopping kanina. and i saw like a topic title like this: the ******* **** of teentalk who's blog is blah blah...

anyway, i was like, isn't that a grammatical error? isn't it supposed to be 'WHOSE blog is blah blah'? anyway, i don't need to fuse about it. hay. which local filipino is admirable for freedom nowadays anyway? i need one. i also need a foreigner one. for religion. hay nakooo. projects here. reaction papers there. quizzes everywhere.

so like, WHAT'S NEW?

can't it be...fun here, enjoy there and happiness everywhere? LOL. whatever.

corny.

i guess i really am bored.

oh well, i'll be more bored without fashion magazines.


my ever first post.:) i left my xanga. somehow...i'm just getting tired of it. it's saturday. they went to the doctor and i'm bored. with no one to talk to. aveline is on the taekwondo thingy so no phone mate.:/ done watching Dragon zakura and waterboys 2 where my husband is in.:)) lol. i can dream. whatever. anyway, well, what can i say? i'm pretty much bothered right now...because of one word.


CHEMISTRY.

oh. not the subject. i'm doing fine at that. what i meant is the teacher. God, is returning a calculator with a polite thank you and a smile so bad? face it. i know i went against the no-talking-till-i-got-the-papers rule but hello? i'm excited for the retreat. and i totally forgot. take the blame off maki. it's my fault for borrowing the calculator in the first place.

scratch that.

it might have been the calculator's fault.

oh well. everything's done. is there even anything i can do about it?

i don't think so.

and that what makes it bad. sometimes, well ok, often i wish i had a time machine or magical fairy god parents[ok, even if they're ODD at least i've got one.] to go back in time and correct my mistakes which got a huge effect not just on me but on a lot people. I don't blame them for getting mad at me. after all if i hadn't open my mouth my teacher could've been done with her checking of long test and we would've gotten our results and we wouldn't have to do a project. it's all my fault.

killing self now.

God..so many problems so little solution.

what the hell am i going to do?

i should've said sorry at the retreat house...at least i wouldn't feel very guilty. i mean, i did say sorry...the class was just so noisy they didn't hear me.

hayyyy...

no time to talk about the crush[es] problem now. i think i have to do some recoletters for my kada pa. sometimes, it's so hard. i don't think i could do it. but somehow, i pass. i can do it. i have a big feeling my teacher hates me. big surprise. my older cousin and my older sister are her favorite students in the past. looks like i broke it. i'm getting the evil eye. hay nako.

sometimes i woner why life is so hard...

oh well..it might have been harder without any lipgloss at all. right?

I am a certified pink lover. I love accessories especially earrings.
I am a self-confessed bookworm and I am a hopeless chocoholic.
I am also a shopaholic and a music-lover, a movie buff particularly chick flicks.
I am friendly and people usually brand me as a snob.
I love taking pictures.
I want to be happy, really, really happy someday.:]



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